You really need to call me tomorrow. I've been waiting for your call all week since you cancelled on me for Tuesday. I've called the crisis line every day multiple times and while I'm not dead or in the hospital, I am in agony and I'm not sure I can get through this without going back on opioids. Every fking moment of every fking day I feel like I could lose it (and I have lost it several times). I'm sick of apologizing to people close to me and now they're not even close. "Coping skills" are shittt. How can I play the keyboard when every fiber of my being is screaming at me?