Boots, You are so courageous to go through this. I bet that the crisis line people are really thinking how good it is that you are reaching out when you need help and that you are doing so well. You can worry about needing them less later but right now you do NEED them and that is why they are there. That's the whole point of ACT isn't it? To provide supports to help you stay out of the hospital. And you're doing that, so you are doing really well. I know it doesn't feel like it but you are.