I hate calling the crisis line. I have to always leave a voicemail and get a call back 20 minutes later and I'm always scared they're gonna be like "oh it's just Boots, nothing we can do to help her so we won't call back" but they do call back but it never helps.

edit: she just told me to try and learn a new song on the keyboard and do some writing. The problem is these people try to find quick and easy solutions but NOTHING will make me feel better.