I have these memories of being sexual abused or maybe it was just experimenting, but I can't remember what is true. It just seems like a big dream or white wash of memories. But then again who would make all this up? so there has to be some truth behind it.

Everything that is "dreamy" happened when I was young like 4 or 5 (I think) and I'm 22 now. I just wish I could remember the truth so I know that i'm being mad at him for a reason and not just my made up stories. Like have you ever woke up from one of those dreams that have been so real and been angry with someone for something they did in your dreams? Its kind of wierd for the other person. Its not like I would be ready to confront him about anything or if I ever would let anyone in my family know.