I saw my psychiatrist with my mom. I explained, about the Wellbutrin.. That I was sui and that Zoloft gave me heart palps - But after stopping those, I felt much better.

When we walked out, my mom was like "Yeah you're so much better than those times, years ago" - I'm telling people.. That I'm better in general (Even though I can be very messed up RN - It's NOTHING... nothing!!! Like in the past..)..

It was a good appointment. I lowered the Dexedrines to 2x 10mg spansules instead of 15mg ones.

I mentioned about the long term side effects of antipsychotics.. My mom told him that she's anxious about me ever stopping the antipsychotics - My psychiatrist said "Yeah it makes me anxious too - But sometimes patients need to realize that they need.."

He said; " - The movement disorders, if they haven't happened in the early stages, they are less likelier to happen in the future - But if you have snapping of muscles etc (or w/e idk), phone the emergency room right away"

He said "Based on assessing your psychiatric record, you definitely need to be on some sort of antipsychotic for the rest of your life". I guess....

To replace the phenibut (500mg a day), in ~1 week (After I get adjusted to the lower dose of Dexedrine), I'll start 75mg of pregabalin in the morning and maybe titrate to 150mg (The maximum that I said I would possibly take) - And if I become too tired, to take it at night..

I talked about my poor executive functioning.. And that I'd really benefit from therapy.. But it's no good where I currently live.. So w/e. I said that in the past few months, I've been much more focused, organizing, planning etc.. More enriched life...

He will see me in 2 months instead of 3 this time.. I said that I would go hiking this week, more exercise.. Instead of being on the computer so much...