((((((((((((((( jinny ))))))))))))))))))))
I know this may be difficult to grasp right this moment, but, in our quest to find our emotional health, to find our self esteem, we do backslide at times. There are triggers out there that get us thinking in negative terms again...feeling those negative, hurtful feelings we've been so accustomed to feeling.
It's not easy moving forward....but just because we take a few steps back doesn't mean we are doing anything wrong. It usually means there is something more to learn from what set us back a bit. The lesson must be repeated to learn something more from it. In other words...you got yourself feeling better....that was the start

Now, maybe there is something more deeper that needs to be addressed from those same things....so again....the process starts, but you now have the knowledge of what it's like to feel better....giving you more strength and ability to work through this next round of difficulties. Do you get my drift here?? You are building a basis for your emotional health....and sometimes some of the blocks come down and need better fortification
I do understand how frustrating and down one can get from this....but I know you and you do have a lot of strength and a resolve to be the best you can be

sabby