Thanks for the post girlfriend. I have the book - and many others. I'm quite familiar with codependency.

I know my issues well - just time to address them - again. I was married to an alcoholic the 1st time -- this time to a meth addict. Common denominator - I'm attracted to addicts. I'm very codependent.
Lenny - have no fear - my children and their emotional/physical well being are first and foremost in my life. Except for my faith in God. They are well taken care of and have never been exposed to any of his meth craziness. I was the lucky one he saved all that for.
There were nights I asked my parents to keep the baby becasue I knew what was waiting for me at home. And, he has never acted out around my 10 year old. In fact - she loves him to death and doesn't understand why I kicked him out.
I was really just looking for support here and not judgement on my decision to stay or leave him. No offense Lenny.