I can't relax at all. It's a mess. When I was talking to my dad, I keep forgetting what I'm talking about - I forget the question. I end up not even knowing what I'm saying. I told my mom and she says that I should maybe stop the pregabalin.. But I'll keep taking it for now..

My whole perception of reality is incomplete strings that lead to no where - No connection to anything.

But I've been like this since I was a kid - I'm verbally challenged.

I need to stop being so hard on myself. But the stress of the heart OCD is back again and it's killing me. I can't think about anything else. I think I might die soon.

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