((((((((((((((((Sabby)))))))))))))))))

dearest Sabby, you always make so much sense ..... i totally agree with you. I know what's bothering me actually right now. As usual it is my mother. As stupid as it sounds i am so disappointed that she has never been in touch. i just can't fathom why a mother would put her only child through so much and not even try and make amends. i was a fool to think she would ever care enough to even try. i just miss a 'mother figure'. i guess it's hit me a bit just now because my best friend lost her mum just recently and is obviously devastated. she has changed how she feels about my mum and I's relationship. she knows my mum is a 'disloyal and narcissistic' person but her own mothers death has put it in a different perspective to her. She told me to call my mum tonight, she never would have done that before, it's ALWAYS me who tries to make amends with my mother ..... i'm only going by how i feel, but i could never let so many months go by without contacting an only child and 2 grandchildren. She is too busy with her 74 year old boyfriend going on expensive cruises.

i'm just so confused right now. Sabby thankyou, know i love and value you so much.

Kerry
xoxoxoxoxoxoxo