I didn't email you for a reason. I'm trying to watch my own boundaries. Things did get a bit out of control Sunday and yesterday. I brought up the hospital to my mom. My pdoc brought up the hospital. but I still managed on my own without emailing you because I don't want you to turn into transference T part 2. Its like the song What About Us by Pink. The part that goes "I don't want control, I want to let go." I'm just trying to be very careful.