I live in a very perfectionistic family... i am constantly reminded either by myself or others that its a shame.. so i am embarassed to not fit into their perfect lives.

I used to engulf myself in books, or anything i could find online on the subject of skinny girls, eating disorders, or anything of the sort. (thats actually how i found this site.) reading the consequences made me feel bad, and gave me some push to heal.. just try to use it as a fuel to force ED our of your life. when i start to feel myself losing control, i tend to go back to those sources as a reminder of how selfish im being and not ttaking care of myself. Hope that tid-bit helped a little