I haven't been too supportive to anyone here (fear of connecting and no energy) so I apologize in advance...and will risk being selfish once again--
How do you know that what you're saying to t. is not boring them to pieces? Or that it's not important and t. is thinking it's a waste of time to be bothered with something so irrelevant? Sometimes I question whether what I'm telling her is even real and since I'm questioning it myself I wonder what she's thinking.
Because of all of the above when I talk to her I can't find my words and I never go into detail and I skip all over the place because I'm worried so much what she thinks. Nothing I say makes sense half the time. I can't communicate like a normal human being. I want to know what she wants from me but she reveals nothing and it drives me crazy. I worry she hates me or wants to get rid of me etc. I have no confidence that anything I say means anything or is important to anyone.