What a beautiful baby boy, LizardLady. I'm sure you miss him very much. Allow yourself as much time as you need to grieve. It's hard losing one of our precious babies!!
If I was there with you, I'd fix us a cup of tea, maybe we would sit outside in the sun, looking at your rose garden...just sitting with you in your pain.
While I can't do that for you, know we are all here for you and I am holding you in my thoughts.
Wishing you sweet memories of your boy to comfort you in your loss.
Hugs Kit