I got the pristiq after therapy. I took the first dose an hour ago. Of course I can't say much after one dose. But I feel buzzed and my brain feels fuzzy and I am not hungry. Therapy went decently. I was trying not to come off as arrogrant and I was trying to make her like me and I was trying really hard to be productive. We talked about what happened this weekend with my anger and anxietyb issues. We talked about how the news last night caused me to shut down for the night. We talked alot about food. She had me watch some cartoon video about a poodle and a mastiff. It was about body image. Anyways therapy went well, but holy hell do I feel completely baked right now. I have not felt much anxiety today and I'm not having my paranoia thoughts today either.

My med alarms are working today. Hopefully I can get back on track with my meds so they can start working properly again. I still need to work on the food alarms. My therapist emailed me half an hour ago about some appointment times. At our session I brought up christmas 2020 and being forced into IOP but I didnt go into details. I havent said anything about transfernce T to her and I don't know if I'm just letting go or if I dont want my current therapist to think I'm having transference with her. I think its a combination of both.