Yesterday's session was awesome! I was able to openly talk about my SI and urges. Like completely open. And she wasn't scared of it/me. She had a reaction (which I want and need), but she didn't overreact. Not at all. She welcomed those parts of me into our space and I felt loved, seen and heard and known, not alone. I wasn't scared of her either. I felt like she was really on my team. It was so beautiful.

I'm still struggling with thoughts, still extremely sad and depressed AND I found a new strength and hope. I no longer want to die and am willing to keep trying with L by my side.