Thank you everyone for the support, I really appreciate it. I cried more last night. But I seem to be doing okay today so far. I know I'll miss her and may not ever have one like her again. It just really hit me hard yesterday. I still have my therapist thankfully who I've been seeing for the exact same amount of time for 6 years and who works at the same clinic as my psychiatrist, they know eachother and worked together. So it will be good to still have my therapist. she is a really good therapist, who will understand what a big loss, and change this will be for me.