(((((((((((silversparrow)))))))))))

Well you have done good to post your feelings here because you all know that we understand Im gunna have a bit of a vent myself here I think...

Honestly there are times (like tonight) when all I wanted to do was kick and scream and lash out at myself. There was so many times in one hour when I thought I was going to give in.... Im actually physically aswell as mentally exhausted, I am tired of fighting and on top of it all I have a constant headache which is starting to get so bad I'm that close to calling it a migrane (I never get headaches).

And you know something? Im not even allowed to have any painkillers for my headache.

I want to go to bed but Im too overtired and my mind is racing, I am hungry but I feel sick and allll because of this silly addiction... so I know exactly how your feeling hun, but even though we feel like this we've always got to remember that...

(and this is for everyone here)

1. We have a choice... we can give in and do it... or we can stay strong.
2. NOT ONE OF US deserves to hurt ourselves like we do - even though we tell ourselves different
3. We all have a strength inside us that can make us carry on and not give in. Even if it seems it's not there at times - it's always with us - we just have to look for it harder sometimes.
4. It's going to get harder before it get's easier but....
5. It WILL get easier.

I know its a struggle but we just have to keep fighting and fighting. It might seem far off sometimes, but i'm convinced that recovery is possible and I'm determined to prove it.
Keep holding out silver,treat yourself like you would a good mate, and it will be worth it in the end

babyg xXx