In regular therapy I cry maybe a third to about half of the time. It depends on whether I'm talking about intense stuff or more mundane things. My T sometimes gets a little softer/quieter when I'm crying but usually she's pretty normal. Once when I was really sobbing she called me "honey," and I could tell it just kind of slipped out but I liked it anyway. It's usually cathartic to some degree to cry in front of her. I've been in therapy long enough that it doesn't really bother me anymore. (I thought it was bizarre that the therapist didn't react much the first time I ever cried in therapy, but that was like twenty years ago.)
With my EMDR therapist, I don't usually cry unless we're reprocessing something and then I think I always cry. Sometimes crying is the least intense physical thing to happen during EMDR (compared to nausea, shaking, muscles getting tense, etc) so I barely notice it.
I am still wearing an N95 to sessions (the 3M V-Flex, which is pretty comfortable), and I still haven't mastered wiping the tears vs. letting them fall into my mask and how to blow my nose in a non-awkward way. One more Covid skill to master, I guess?
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