If I didn't have my cats tonight would be the night. I want to end this. I can't even skate outside because of this heat. I hate this place. It used to rain and be beautiful, now it's a sh-ithole and I hate it. I'd go see Elvis tonight, but no $. I hate my life. I hate all these people who have hurt me so much just because I'm not lucky. I've always taken such good care of them and all they do is run me to the ground like a trusty old car. I hate them hate, hate, hate. I have to go away so I can survive.