thank you very much for writing back. i talked to my wife and my therapist about what happened and they both said that i gotta try and be more calm like you guys said cause they think that i'm guilty or hiding something.

i get so nervous that i'm going to get in trouble and go back to jail. i always felt like that was something wrong with me that makes me a bad person or less then everybody else from what my parents said and i used to be afraid to go places like the grocery store or a mall cause i thought i'm not supposed to be there and i'm gonna get in trouble for being there. i know better now but when something like this happens those feelings come back and i get afraid that im gonna go to jail and lose my family and everything that is good now like i wasn't supposed to have it in the first place.

i really like having my tattoos. there just about the only thing i like about me about how i look. i like them because they make it like my body is mine again instead of being all marked up with scars from stuff that happened i got tattoos of things that make me happy about my life like my wife's name and our sons birthday or tigers and stuff that make me feel like im stronger. it just plain sucks that something that makes me feel good about myself makes other people think i'm a bad person.