I am so sorry that you are in that situation. Not being able to fully enjoy summer can be very depressing.

My situation is that I live in a place where it is always sunny and I find myself longing for cloudy days. It is so hot and terribly bright here that I actually find this situation to be oppressive. to escape the blinding light and heat I generally stay indoors. But looking at the same four walls every day is oppressive too.

The place where I live is a high altitude desert. The air is so clear that sunlight can be really blinding and sun glasses don't seem to help much. So while our situations are in some ways opposite, they are also in some ways the same: not being able to fully enjoy summer.

I often long for the seasons of Fall and Spring because the sunlight is not so brutal and the heat not so oppressive. But like you, I cannot really go someplace else for the summer where conditions would be more favorable to my condition.

Wish I knew how to help you and how to help me too. My heart goes out to you in your distress!