Had a pretty intense discussion with Dr. T today about the therapeutic relationship and some related stuff. He shared some impressions of me, like from things I've said to him, etc., that I think might have really upset me even as recently as a year ago. But today I found those reactions to be helpful. I was actually saying things like, "I want you to explain how it was making you feel, what it was like for you." I think that's some sort of growth? It felt like a very honest discussion on both of our parts. And he was being particularly empathetic and also like he was genuinely trying to understand why I was upset about some things and what might possibly help me with them.

I'm feeling OK about it now. Though, as he put it at the end of session, I wonder if a therapy grenade will go off later? He said if it did, I was welcome to email.

Oh, and Dr. T fashion report: cream-colored button down top that may have been linen (or was just wrinkly?) and blue shorts with some sort of pattern that were quite short when he sat down. Like there was a considerable amount of thigh showing. I just did my best to avert my eyes. (Usually his shorts are to his knees.) Oh, and dark tennis shoes with socks.