I can't do this anymore. I have had enough. I am tired and I am at the end of the line. I physically and emotionally feel like I can't do it anymore. I don't want to do this anymore. I am so tired of fighting, wrestling with myself, and I don't know how to fix it. I don't know how to get past it and it doesn't seem like you have any idea either. K and I never managed and I don't think we will be able to either.

I walked away from today and the first thing I did in the car is cry. Tired tears. Frustrated tears. Hopeless tears.

This is unachievable. This is impossible. I should just give up.