Thank you. I haven't had any other explanation or communication with her. She sent the email saying that she needed time off and that has been that. Several people have said I should contact her to ask for more information (I didn't reply to her email), but it feels too risky. I am frightened of her potential reply and also of the potential for a non-response.

I have had a few sessions with a couple of other therapists, including the therapist she named as a referral, but I am finding it hard to work with them. The therapist she used as a referral had no knowledge of the referral, was last in contact with her five years ago and has been very vocal about her behaviour being unethical and retraumatising. This in itself feels bizarre - for the referral therapist to be so disparaging of her. Maybe reality is dawning on me and the realisation is hard to go through.

I hope things will start to ease. I have already seen some shift. I don't feel as angry or nasty all the time in the way I did initially. Now I feel sadness. Hopefully things will move again.