I definitely relate to the feelings of wanting T and longing for comfort from her. Sometimes they are unbearable. They are totally normal feelings to have, especially in context with therapy when all sorts of feelings from the past are stirred up. They're not bad or wrong.

I understand not knowing how to feel about her text. I would be really disappointed by that response. My guess is she was trying to normalise having feelings and needs, which is a good thing to do if it fits with where you are, but unfortunately she missed what you were needing from her in the moment and didn't really empathise. It was a misattunement, as it were.

Such a shame your sessions have been messed up. It's so unsettling especially after all this. I hope you hear from her about a time soon.

In regard to religion/church, I have nothing against it as I share many beliefs, but I think religion often tries to make you run before you can walk in regard to needs and self sacrifice. It doesn't teach that people who grew up with severely unmet needs will naturally seek to meet those needs and develop a healthy sense of self before they can reach a point of being able to give oneself to their faith in a wholesome way. From a psychological perspective, Carl Jung (I think) said that people need to grow a healthy ego before they can let go of it. Religion can become a way to deny your own needs and keep you stuck otherwise, when it should be the opposite - encouraging growth and healing.