I slept really good last night. I cut back on caffeine and I'm down to one soda a day. Then I can sleep with just one 10mil melatonin. Although I'm still tired during the day. I got a letter from my insurance saying they have approved the prestiq until whenever. It works super well and has little side effects I wonder if thats why theres insurance issues with it. At least when I was on medicaid they only covered the crappy psych meds. But the only bad side effects I'm having is some slight urinary retention mainly in the morning and another one I won't mention on here. But its helping my anxiety and my agoraphobia and my general mental health and its also helping me control my appetite. This morning I was struggling to go and in my head I was thinking "come on pristiq, don't fail me." It seems to be mostly in the morning though.

My therapist sent me a really nice email yesterday because she wanted to know how the prestiq was going. The thing is we're not on the same page about my weight loss and I don't really know how to approach her about it. I want to lose more. Shes telling me not to. I'd do it in seceret without telling her but I feel like 15 pounds on me would be kinda noticeable. She's basically just trying to help me learn that guys come in all shapes and sizes. But its like I just don't like what I see half the time. I've told her and my mom that and they say my image of myself is distorted. So I'm not quite sure what to do.

But I do feel quite a bit better with the prestiq.