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Hello again mpyzck,
thanks for responding to my questions. With your responses in mind I'll now try to recommend some resources that might be helpful to you.
mpyzck: I Was The One In The Military And That Could Have Been The Trama You Were Refering Too Cause It Was Extremly Hard For Me Emotionally And Physically. I Was In The Marines.
Here's one resource you could explore:
Women's Trauma Recovery Program In addition, there is a forum here devoted to the subject of
Combat Trauma. If you wish to explore or share traumatic aspects of your military duty, you could do so there. Numerous links that may be helpful can also be found in the "Resources" area of that topic.
Another discussion area that may be helpful to you at this time is this one:
Relationships & Communication. That might be a place where you could explore the issue of your jealousy and relationships with significant others. Bear in mind if you choose to do so that you will be sharing your experience with peers -- not doctors, nurses, psychiatrists or psychologists but rather, other people who have had experiences similar to your own.
In regard to working with a therapist, I suggest you seek out a skilled psychologist -- preferably someone who has a background in trauma. There are various resources you can utilize to find skilled professionals in your area. For example, simply entering "your location+psychologists" into a search engine would probably bring up some options in your area. Word of mouth, the yellow pages, and other psychologists are also good options for you. This article may also be of some assistance:
How to Choose a Competant Counselor. If working with a professional is simply not an option for you there are still plenty of options you could explore in the self-help line.
On a final note, if for some reason, you feel you require emergency assistance... if you are concerned you may hurt yourself or another... I would encourage you to go to your local emergency room. Should hospitalization be presented as a necessity I also suggest you admit yourself on a voluntary basis. You'll retain far more freedom and ability to make your own decisions than if you were admitted as an involuntary patient.
I hope there's something here that has been helpful to you. If you would like more specific suggestions, ideas or resources, please let us know and we'll do our best to help you out.
Best of luck to you and your boyfriend.