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Originally Posted by SlumberKitty
No appointment time from T yet. She did text me to tell me that I am not fine. (Actually in my text I had said I will be fine. Not that I was fine.) And that I would be okay. (How the heck does she know that I will be okay? I don't even know if I will be okay. It's probably just something they say to try to be comforting.) Then she asked if I was at home or work. But no times yet as to when she can meet. Sigh.
I feel like somehow I cosmically caused this car accident to happen by telling her that I was looking forward to talking to her today. I knew that when I sent that I should not because SOMETHING would happen and we wouldn't be able to talk today. And then sure enough, that's exactly what happened. That is probably "magical thinking" or some such nonsense on my part but it looks like it came true.
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I'm glad she responded in some way, but sorry she hasn't given you a time yet. Maybe with the "You'll be OK," she was trying to get you to have faith in yourself that you'll get through it? I don't tend to find that helpful for me either.
I understand what you mean about the magical thinking, as I do that as part of OCD. I feel like I caused something to happen to lead T to switch to virtual Sunday because when I was at a concert Saturday night near his office, I thought to myself, "I'll be right back here in a little over 12 hours" and had also thought of something I might was to share in session (that would work better in person).