I'm in the hospital with a pretty dire medical issue. It's pretty weird. I keep needing blood transfusions - bags of red blood cells. I've had 4 in the past 9 days. I'm severely anemic, which makes me extremely weak. The doctors don't seem to know what to do with me or what's going to become of me. I have access to a lot of my medical record. A doctor wrote I'm at high risk to have a poor outcome.

I'm getting pretty seriously depressed.