Thanks ElectricManatee, I think that does make sense, and thank you for trying to explain something inexplicable!! You are right that at the moment I'm not looking for a new T, but hey, if I ever do then getting creative might be the best way forwards!

I can see how getting into a state where things are more loose before trying to go there could be useful, and EMDR has certainly been something I have considered before. Only problem is that I don't even look in the direction of my T at the moment!