I don’t have answers for anyone including myself, yet can relate to having a challenging time connecting with parts of yourself.

I do relational therapy and probably some other stuff, Idk. T and I work with parts I think. Years ago he talked about him relating to a child. She has become more present to me through our work. A teenager is rarely present.

The most challenging part of T going on vacation generally and being on vacation now is that I get lost. Not only does T fade away but I lose parts of myself too. I can’t find him and I can’t find me. Parts are so sad and afraid and angry they hide. Poof, T disappears. It sounds pathetic to me but his vacations are so very disruptive. He says our connection has a short half life for me. It’s tough when we can’t connect with parts of ourselves also in the ways we want to or have before.

Drifting away on a raft