Ive had about ten visits with a counselor I guess its for PTSD The thing is ive probably had this all my life except I just didnt know what it was. The last abuser brought me to such a dark place and secondary abuse by law enforcement left me with this mantra going off in my head That its not safe to trust anyone. This is really affecting my ability to trust a counselor I am trying to stop but the anxiety i get just from entering the T's office is almost unbearable. I am afraid I'm not a very good "client" and I am wasting appts if I cant talk about things. Does anyone have any advice on how to get help from a therapist? I want to heal from the past but sometimes I feel so hopeless I hear people talk about how much their counseling has helped them heal and I really want that to happen. I am not having too much luck with the emdr therapy but Ive only tried it a few times. I think the anxiety is preventing me from getting better and I feel so discouraged that I am thinking if trying counseling is even worth my time.