Today went ok. I was so checked out and tired to the point I was basically dissociated the whole time. I'm not totally sure whats up. I feel kinda bad for not putting in the effort I should have. We talked about my dysphoria mainly. She said I had the perfect body type for a guy because of my broad shoulders and thats why stores like Hollister were good for me to shop at. Idk. I don't really like comments about my appeareance. I was just out of it the whole time and I still feel out of. Like I swear she switched offices but she said she didn't. But I don't know if I'm having a complete head **** or if shes gas lighting me because I swear we werent in the same office last time. She asked me on our way out if I had eaten anything today and I said not really and she told me I should. I did eat a bit after but I'm not very hungry. I did find out the thing I did eat that made me sick I'm highly senstive to. So I wasn't mucking around for no reason today. She swears like in F bombs which I don't always like and I was talking about urinary rentention and she told me to stick my finger up my you know what to massage the area. Like dude that word causes dysphoria. But eh I think it was just me today being too senstive.