i'm feeling very indescribable this morning. we've been discovering new parts lately, or at least new to us, and frankly it's anxiety inducing. one part likes to come out while we're scrolling through facebook or even while we're going through forums, and i'm starting to get nervous about checking forums and FB now because i don't want them to come out, i want to see for myself what's going on. i also kind of just want to stop discovering parts now, thanks. the more parts we discover, the more it leaves us open for discovering extremely traumatized parts and that also makes me nervous. i know it's just the ANP in me talking, with all the trauma-avoidance and whatnot, but it would be great if we could hold off on the traumatized parts for a bit. we've had flashes here and there of extremely traumatized parts before, and i gotta say, i'm not really a fan!


i wish i didn't have DID.