I feel useless. No wonder they keep me at a lower level - it's because I cannot advance and because I'm freaking useless.

My partner I was working with on a website audit, well, she overhauled our entire presentation the other day, making me feel entirely useless in the project. Before she overhauled it, we had contributed fairly equally to this project. Granted, what she did was amazing and it looks far better now. It's a far better presentation, but I feel like I could never have achieved what she did, and she learned how to do it in no time. She is relatively new to the company as well, but is more senior than I am.

What's wrong with me? Why can't I learn this stuff? I used to learn hard things more easily than this. Why can't I do these presentations?

I asked her to help show me how she came up with the ideas she did when she overhauled it. She's supposed to show me soon so that I can learn from her.

I just feel SO inept, SO stupid and SO useless in this particular job!

So, while I want to progress and do the job I was hired to do, these complex presentations are an obstacle for me and I can't seem to get past them. I hope I can learn something from my more senior colleague, but this is why my self esteem and self image are so low at this stage.

And when my boss said the presentation is looking really good yesterday? I had to give my colleague all the credit.

To boot, I am training on a complex software program all this week, and I keep having to ask my trainer to show me precisely how to do things.

I have NEVER felt more inept in a job. This job is making me feel horrible about myself.