The other night I dreamt I was with another woman.
In the dream I was relieved to discover she was brunette (unlike V*****).
I tried to hold her.
I think we kissed.

Since the subject of formalising child maintenance payments was raised last week there has been a lot of tension between us.

We argued in a playground car park.
When V***** is upset she gets personal.
She made it clear she just wants out of the marriage and away from me. I was crushed. What kind of person am I?


I'm glad I asked for the Minute of Agreement to be revised but felt unsettled and sad at how little she cares about me now. I feel small and insignificant in her presence. I know the feelings will pass but still hurts.

I began to feel paranoid about what she might be saying about me. I noticed her friends, some of whom used to greet me warmly, now have nothing to say. It's all very uncomfortable and so I avoid them if I can.