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Blue_Bird · Jul 29, 2022, 09:39 PM

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Originally Posted by Desoxyn

You did it for a reason - A reason we here won't judge.. And it caused even more trauma!.. The memory... Dissociating away from it, uncontrollably.

There will be massive progress in mental health happening in 5-10 years. I can't even imagine if I'll be alive in 1-2 years..

To heal, BB. That is the plan.

I drank two large bottles (While on high dose Prozac - Should have caused serotonin syndrome and killed me) - I stared into the abyss, "Hey... I know the meaning of the universe - But no one will believe me..". It was a horrible time.. I was 17 - (Obviously didn't help with prodromal schizophrenia).

I was worse in terms of stupidity.. I went all in on stuff like that. I was chasing a high in an absolutely horrible existence - But it helped.. I could eventually help out the world with a field of profession - But I'm no genius like Alexander Shulgin, Rick Doblin etc..

There's no brain damage - It just needs to be reset. The tools are coming. Don't ever give up. I believe in you..

I was watching "How to Change Your Mind" (Michael Pollen) on Netflix (About LSD, psilocybin, MDMA etc) with my mom.. My dad was watching too.

The world changes, like a rhythmic, spiritual pattern of good and evil.. You have great fears.. And if I had magic powers, I'd eliminate them. Love is all we need.

With time.. Things will definitely get better. We just have to increase our quality of life for the time being.

Thank you desoxyn

Yeah it was scary. I blacked out and when I sort of came to I couldn't understand my thoughts and couldn't speak, I was trying to ask someone to call an ambulance but I was alone in my room and couldn't speak the right words anyway and was hallucinating a person there with me, I kept passing in and out then eventually I was able to understand where I was but couldn't stand up. I was scared to death that I'd die but was too embarrassed to wake my mom up to call an ambulance so I just spent the whole night praying I wouldn't die, not able to walk the whole night and I just laid in bed the whole next day and pretended I was just tired or something when my mom asked what I was doing. Didn't even mention it to her until years after it happened. Was high for a few days after that and felt very strange for over a week.

I had messed around with getting high on it a few times and had enjoyed it so I thought **** it I have two bottles here let's take all of it for fun, should be even better. I was not in my right mind that do something so reckless. Even I should have known that was a stupid idea and could be dangerous. But I just went ahead and did it without thinking twice about it.

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