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Originally Posted by Desoxyn
I'm sorry BB... It's a traumatic thing but I'm happy that you trust us to write that out <3.. Once you're comfortable, you can put it to rest (And think about it less).
We were young.. After a certain age, we're more responsible and don't see any humour (Although some people never grow up) - But it's a reaction to the absurdity. For you, it's a really hard lesson.. Don't think negatively about yourself for it..
Really, drugs start to suck the more you do them.. Some people (Like me), it took longer than it should have to realize..
You could always blame lack of proper education to kids about drugs other than "Just say no" - Cuz obviously that didn't work..
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Makes me think about all the drugs and stuff I did earlier in life.
One time I blacked out at a party (my junior year of high school) - and I think that experience alone caused my schizophrenia/schizoaffective/whatever I have. I just felt myself interiorizing so much, and then I was crying and some girl was like rubbing my head while I threw up into the toilet (sorry if TMI).
That probably wasn't the worst experience I had though. The mental pain/anguish that came after that and several other traumatic events (I won't mention them now) was the worst part.
It was just so weird. Like everyone else stayed "normal," whatever that means, while I was completely broken into pieces.
Anyway I had started to go through that trauma history with the therapist who basically I had to stop with 'cause of whatever. And then they terminated me from the practice because I cancelled too many times. That came without warning. So that in itself was kind of a terrible experience.