I was dropping and breaking cups (2 times) at work and walking around with things in my hands, not knowing where I was going. I caught myself mumbling to myself - from intensely thinking too hard, fast. I'm so stressed out. I really have a lot of self-doubt.

Last night I felt like I was on LSD - I felt absolutely amazing - Probably the best anyone could ever feel without having access to and amplifying some divine euphoria dial by using the energy of the sun. But I knew that it would go away once I went to sleep, after I woke up - And I'd go back to like how I was 2 days ago, being severely suicidal (Replaying plans in my head) and in extreme apathy/emotional pain.

This happens every 1-2/10 nights. Sometimes I'll go months without it happening. I wonder if it's the phenibut. Idk.