"wondering why "there is no point". yes a slap in your face.
if you have a diagnosis of borderline then perhaps that is what they meant. It is very hard for that diagnosis/person with that to be treated. long term therapy is required. I don't mean to discourage you from seeking adequate service and to be treated with dignity.
My symptoms of bipolar are stable then hypo then mania then psychosis. That can happen quickly for me. I think I need to tell my pdoc this. She is busy but I can reach out to her if I need to. She is a nurse practitioner. Maybe you could find a (NP) on your insurance plan. she may give you more time and sympathy/empathy. mean while I offer hugs. ((((((((((((((((HUGS)))))))))))))))
bizi