I should go for a summer night walk and listen to some podcast.. Lately, I've just been so afraid of people..

I was happy, alone during the summers of 2019 and 2020. The parties helped stimulate my mind, chaos. It calms me down - But back then, it traumatized me.

So much sadness.. I've had so many insights, alone. Maybe that's the way it's supposed to be. I would love to go to a music festival.

I remember saying my 20's would suck (On here.. when I was turning 20). Half way through, it has been hella good - All because of the trip (But shh.. You take meds to block LSD feelings - You're good..).. and I've learned/experienced a lot. Idk what would have happened if I didn't make those friends in 2018 when I moved to this hippie town. I would have completely lost hope, being in isolation for so long.

I can't believe all of what has happened..