starbright, I'm 18 years old and the day I was supposed to go in for my GED test, I was asleep... Why? Because my alcoholism had me blinded and thinking everything would be fine. I didn't need no stinkin' deplomia! I had my booze and I had my boozin' friends, why get an education when you can have so much fun! WRONG!

I finally got my GED, but not without admitting to myself first that I was powerless over my drinking and using and only God (of my understanding) could restore me to sanity. Sounds easy, huh? It took me MONTHS to finally turn my life over to my Higher Power and admit my powerlessness. Admitting you are powerless over anything in your life is hard enough to do as is, especially for a drug addict... I had lied and munipulated so much to others, that I started doing it to myself just so I didn't have to get on the right track. Wasn't the fact that I couldn't do it, it was a matter of me CHOOSING my path, and I'll be darned if I'm letting anything or anyone else control my life but me! ... That was my thoughts. That was my addiction speaking loud and clear to me daily. It took many alcohol poisonings, two overdoses, and being raped to finally get me to the point of saying, "Ok, enough is enough. I think it's time."... I really, truely hope it doesn't take that or worse for you to realize your problem with drugs/alcohol is really there, regardless of you thinking it's under control. The longer you wait to get help, the harder times will get, sadly. Best of luck to you.