I think over thinking and being afraid of losing Anna’s trust is very likely connected to the bullying you endured at a formative age, also you said you need to be liked and are terrified of someone losing their positive opinion of you. I can identify with that very much.

Of course in reality people can and will fluctuate in their opinions of us, regardless of whether we are perfect or not. Only they can decide whether our flaws (we all have them) are ones they can tolerate or not. I’ve heard it said that true friendships are when you know someone’s flaws, they know yours, but you still love and like them. You can be imperfectly human and flawed and still loved and liked.

I do hope you can find a better therapist for you, there are better options out there and you deserve help from someone who is knowledgeable about childhood trauma (because that is what you went through with bullying).

Write on here and check in as often as you need.