I talked to my insurance company this morning. Good news is, I have met my out of pocket maximum, so I won't get charged anything if I have to go inpatient.

I texted my therapist this morning and told her that I feel like I need to go to the hospital.

I left a message for my pdoc, on his office voicemail and also through the portal. I need him to try to get me admitted. That way I don't have to go to the ER and get put in involuntary. Hopefully he can get me into the good hospital. There are three I can go to. One has bad reviews, one I went to last time. It was okay but some stuff wasn't great. I am hoping the other one is good. I know the regular hospital is good so I am hoping the psych hospital is good. I also faxed him my insurance card and the list of hospitals because he only takes cash so he probably does not have my insurance information. Now I am just waiting. Waiting is hard.