i've been crying now for two days i soo badly want to si i keep looking at the object i just need one little mark but one might lead to too many i'm freaking out a lot and i'm once again finding interest in fires i know i should go to an emergency room but i'm fed up of people taking advantage of me and i don't like myself for letting it happen. i'm sitting in chat alone and crying and it depresses me more i don't think i can fight these urges any more i'm giving in just can't stant all the pain and hurt.