I told myself last night though (My mind was very clear) - "Stay cool, calm, collective". And I repeat that to myself..

"Cool, calm, collective".. That's what smart people are like.. I have to not go into madness.

I will quit alcohol too (My mom poured out my rum) + weed. No more of those. I can do this on my own, be successful (In my own way), work on myself..

I don't think I'm too hard on myself anymore.. It's a healthy criticism. I'm forgetting what the abusive people said... I am the master of my own mind. I will listen to myself...