I need to get off the internet - Because I'm not even happy. I don't get people that just want to live in the woods and have no human contact. I would kms for being so bored.. And a friend once said to me "What do you do all day", judging me (when I started to isolate myself) and all he did was play sports.. I said "I don't even know.." but why did he care? - and it's been like that since then. I'm not excited about games, life. It's all the same thing. Everything is the same. It's anhedonia and then people put me down. All I wanted to do was escape. I'm an outcast in every situation. I deserve nothing but to feel like life isn't a disturbing hell that I need to escape from.