You said you were apart for a year and a half and then you said you’ve been back together for 4 months. Then you say it’s been a week since you’ve “reconnected “
Slightly confused. What are these triggers you talk about ? If she’s triggering you and you respond with “ radio silence “ and a lot of guilt and shame. Well , that’s on you to work on the guilt and shame. Also wouldn’t want to get back with someone who constantly brings up the past.
You say your missing her but it sounds from your post like you are together.
You both have a lot to work thru.
Best of luck to you……