Hi gamommy...I have read through the posts and it sounds like you are on the right track...and it is not going to be easy for you. Us addicts can be a real pain in the butt. Some of the things we do to the ones we love are...unforgivable. It takes a strong person like you to forgive. I wonder if he realizes just how lucky he is to have you in his life--it sounds like you are taking care of yourself and your kids, but are in his corner too. Thats a tough place to be. My thoughts are with you...and I am sorry you are going through this. I admire your compassion. Keep writing....we are here to listen.