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Aug 06, 2022, 12:04 AM
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Member Since: Jul 2019
Location: Downtown Vibes, California
Posts: 15,701
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So. Here I am, finally. The day was blessedly cooler - not amazingly so, but summer weather that is tolerably decent. Tonight is breezy and lovely. I am waiting for the inevitable moment when I feel a very specific, supremely fresh, breeze and can say, with all truth, Ahhh...that breeze is coming to us as a blessing from the ocean!
One of these nights, kids, one of these nights.
It is sooo good to "see" you all.
I can't even exactly remember, but I think I took 50mg. of Seroquel last night...or maybe I took ZzzQuil?? Well, whatever I took, it didn't work. I went to bed at a decent time, laid there for a couple of hours, told the cats "I give up, really, I give up, my brain has broken" and got out of bed. I felt defeated, and the cats looked seriously disappointed about losing a warm human-sized body to sleep against.
I can't stand the taste of alcohol, but I do wonder if, say, a Guinness (which is the most tolerable of intolerable alcoholic drinks to me) would help me fall asleep - or would I just be up to pee every fifteen minutes for hours?
I'm so desperate that I may take 75mg of Seroquel tonight just to try for some real sleep. Or maybe 50mgs Seroquel and Tylenol PM.
Anyway. I may have felt a bit calmer today. I think I did. A bit depressed now and then, so who knows what's-what in this soup du jour (such a clever choice of user names @Soupe du jour ) - of bipolar disorder, meds, sleep/no sleep, etc., etc.
I just have my fingers crossed so hard for lithium to be the ticket that gets me off the rollercoaster.
Okay. Time to take meds and get ready for bed. 
Love, to each of you. See you tomorrow. 
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